Clearing Things Up

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First off, I am very saddened by the events that took place yesterday. It seems that events, such as this, are occurring far too often. I am heart broken for each and every family that is affected by this. I know these are real people, with real hurt and real sorrow.  My sincerest prayers are with Boston. I cannot imagine the pain or the suffering. The fear that these people will have to live with everyday. The nightmares. The deep loss. In times such as these, I wonder how people are able to mentally cope without Jesus. If not for Him, we have no hope. BUT in HIM, we have hope. This world is not our home. He has overcome the world. He will overcome sin and suffering. Take heart sweet ones, take heart. 

Secondly...
This week I have had multiple people that were very confused that we still have Baby M. In an earlier post {here}, I explained some of my thoughts on the heartbreak that I experienced one day in a courtroom. 

1) Baby M is still here, probably for a very long time. 

2) You have to understand, some people that know me in real life still think we have the sibling group of 5 - those kids have been gone 11 months...it is hard to take time to explain the details in person when you know this is the reality. People want to care, but they do not take the time to listen. 

3) It is difficult to give you the full story while also protecting Baby M's privacy - I will try to get a little more into the full story so that you can better understand where I am coming from. 

We were supposed to have visitation with the family yesterday, but everyone was a no show {including the social worker that called 2 minutes after the visit was supposed to start} That was an hour of wasted driving for my mom. It is maddening and sadly, the reality for foster families. I have been busy, busy, busy today trying to play the part of "mom". Since mom actually had to work today and I live at home, I get to take over her responsibilities while I am not in school. Babies, doctors appointment with the grandparents and so much more. I really do love it!
{but I don't see how she does it all, every. single. day.}

More about Baby M here, here and here.